It's like...forgetting the words to your favourite song...

It was a lost cause, perhaps. Realizing I've already lost the chance but yet, grasping to false hope...that I could be "lucky" for the second time around for the lottery.

Got into the first draw, which was flawed, and had to be redrawn...alas, I wasn't meant to get it. Nice teaser, indeed.

This month was an odd one, lots of talks with friends and colleagues about leaving, about staying on, about making the best of our positions...lots of angry voices, but yet lots of practical voices too.
Letting the old dreams go, and throwing the wrong ones away was probably harder than it sounds, given I had plans made up...and have it all scrapped like it never happened.

An uncertain stage in life, I could put it as. Feels like I'm already out of my own comfort zone...losing sense of connection to the world, to people around me...any sense of direction and purpose...
I've been driven to shut the doors from the world....my own doing, perhaps ?
It's probably the little things here and there that would bring me back.

Thank goodness for the state park that I frequent weekly, I'm finding some peace and sanity walking by the lake for hours...makes a good exercise too.

Time. Could use more of that...

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(taken from youtuber:RJLupin6)

Regina Spektor - Eet

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it, you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember, you try to feel the beat.

Eee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.
Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.

You spend half of your life trying to fall behind.
You're using your headphones to drown out your mind.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember, you try to move your feet.

Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.
Ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-ee-
Eet eet eet.

Someone's deciding whether or not to steal.
He opens a window just to feel the chill.
He hears that outside a small boy just started to cry.
'Cause it's his turn, but his brother won't let him try.

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it, you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember, you try to move your feet.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember, you try to feel the beat.